Thank you, Dad.

Sometimes it just takes a good heart-to-heart with someone who cares about you to change your view on things.

I have to admit, I have the best father a girl could ask for.    I am a grown woman with three kids of my own and my dad is still here for me.. always has been.   Not only was he great to me as a kid, but he's supporting MY family when I should be doing this on my own.   He was supporting us when Jeremy should have stepped up as a man and did it.

I'm so thankful for him.     After writing my blog post lastnight and a flood of tears, I had a talk with my dad.    He told me that I was an amazing mother and I dont need some excuse of a man holding me and my kids back.     He said "Get a job, i'll make sure you get there"   "Get a job, i'll help you get childcare"

I stayed up until 3am lastnight doing applications online only to get up at 7am with the kids this morning.   I'm exhausted.

Things I need to get done:
    -sign up for WIC.   They supply a FREE very high grade double electric breast pump for woring or school-going mothers.   I have EVERY intention of keeping Ellie on the boob juice for as long as possible.   It's been a hard journey but I LOVE breastfeeding and knowing I'm giving her the best she could ever have straight from my body like a Mommy is supposed to.
    -Get a job and apply for daycare assistance.   Obvious reasons..  lol
    -Save for the VERY important things.. like Gas to drive someone else's vehicle back and forth to work each day until i can save for my very own car again and pay insurance and all the other super important things.
    -MOVE OUT!   Yes, I need to move out.   I'll be terrified to live on my own again, but obviously it needs to be done when I have 3 kids and a family of my own..   Hopefully I can find a CLEAN, SAFE 3bd home that I can afford utilities on.
  
All the while, I still want to be selling Scentsy and Velata.   It's so much fun and it's easy to be passionate about something you love and enjoy.


I have so much more to do on my laundry list of items but I can do this.  I will do this.  I HAVE to do this, for myself, my kids and my dad.