It's funny how you can go literally all day and if you keep busy enough, you can keep something off your mind. Doesn't matter how important that something is.. just keep busy.
I really enjoy my "down-time" when the kids are in bed at night, but lately it's been torture. All I can do is sit and think... and cry. Sit here and cry like a fucking fool. Wishing I could be happy with someone who isn't even close to being compatable with me.
It's sad.. sad and stupid. I'm such an idiot.
I know it'll be a REALLY long time before I can move on from these last six years and losing my best friend.. but I'll live. The kids will understand some day.. maybe.
I just hope their Dad can step up and be there for him and not disappear for months at a time again...
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