My scheduled C-section is December 12th, 7:30am assuming Butterball doesn't decide to come earlier on his/her own.. which is totally a possibility but not likely.
I've been psychotically nesting like crazy but it just doesn't seam real yet. I don't know if thats because I haven't had baby stuff to go through and wash or if it's just because I haven't come to terms yet with the idea and fact that i'll have THREE kids soon. Yeah, I'm still in total shock myself.
I've been scrubbing doors.. yes, doors. Shampooing carpet and furniture like crazy.. doing my laundry and the kids.. and not a whole lot of much else. I'd love to be decorating a nursery right now or buying Butterball clothes like my life depended on it. But that isn't happening.
Although i DID bust out some of my baby items from my storage unit today. :) Today I got my swing, bouncer, bassinet and carseat out.. Not everything i wanted to today, but a good start. Turns out the huge boxes full of baby items I need are of course in the very back corner of the unit, on the bottom.. covered with totes of holiday items and random goodies. Figures, right? So now not only do I have to take pretty much everything out of the storage unit to get what I need (because i cant lift the huge boxes once i finally get to them and i'll have to slide them out the door and somehow hoist them into my car) but the freaking storage unit looks like it exploded from Jeremy frantically looking for a box with diapers in it.. which wasnt even in the storage unit. lol I'm wanting to nest to badly that I want to remove everything, re-pack it and re-stack it.. Lord, help me!
Anyways... tomorrow howpefully I'll be able to wash the covers to the items I got today and put them all back together.. and maybe after my Dr's appointment I'll stop by my unit since theyre pretty close together and work on getting those boxes out I want so badly. These boxes literally have EVERYTHING in them..
Packs of Diapers..
Clothing
Breast Pump & Storage Supplies
Play Mats.. Bumbo.. etc.
Seriously SO MUCH stuff I need is in these stinkin boxes. :[
But anywhoo..... Today I believe I am... 34 weeks, 4 days? So, 1 1/2 more weeks until I'm 9months pregnant. I really cant believe how quickly this pregnancy has flown by.. I can't wait for it to be over and to have my body back to myself again, but at the same time.. I'm terrified of having two kids 14 months apart in age. I keep getting comments like "having three kids isnt bad, its fun!" Thanks for the reassurance but your kids arent this close in age so dont even try to compare it or pretend like you know how it'll be for my family and myself.
I've got a checkup with my Dr tomorrow and cant wait to hear Butterball's hearbeat again. Its sure been a while and seems like something always comes up when I am supposed to go to an appointment.. although we FINALLY got the pics we needed of baby's face, heart and spine.. 3rd times a charm! Thankfully everything looked great. We may get one more chance to view baby before I deliver to check growth and size to make sure I wont be having an overly huge baby with our fears of having a huge and unhealthy baby again.. like poor Maleah was when she was first born. :(
I really wish i could be trying for a VB2C, but that seems like an impossible idea. I had every OB, Midwife and Doula turn me down and the only way I could get what I want, is if I were crazy enough to attempt a home birth. Being only 14mo PP and having awful scar tissue, there is no way i would be willing to try it.. nevermind the fact that I live almost an HOUR away from the hospital should something go wrong and I need to be rushed in.
Maybe if I dont get my tubes ties this time, maybe if i decide to have another... 5 years or so from now, I can attempt a VBMC.. even if I have to drive miles and miles away to get what I want. <3 All i ever wanted was the chance to TRY.
Well heres my favorite belly pic so far.. this is from the 23rd of October, the day we did the Girls' joint birthday party. I've only really taken 3 this pregnancy and i look like a freaking heiffer in the others so those wont be shared on here. ;)
This pic was exactly 32 weeks. My belly looks adorable and round and I look.. healthy and not miserable for once. lol And crazy Mallory is in the background and my little leach Maleah insisted on sitting ON my feet for this picture. weird kids.. but I sure love them :)
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