Divorce...happens?

Well it's been a few weeks again.. I swear I keep slacking... I'll write a few entires and then disappear for a bit again.

Between my household duties, the girls and packing etc. i am seriously so busy.

I dont even know if I've written about this before because it's really personal but in July my parents who had been together close to 30 years split up.    My Mom moved into an apartment in town and my Dad is still living in the house they bought together.  My Dad already has a girlfriend.. a woman he works with and she has two kids.    They're not living together..yet.    Since myself and my kids are still living here until it's time for us to PCS, they're living in separate homes.

I like the woman and her kids..  yes kids.   She has a 15yr old daughter and a 20 yr old daughter.     They're nice kids and dont know their real father.   It's kind of like my dad is stepping in as their step-father already.    Hell, he already speaks of moving her and her kids in after we're on our way out the door and how he's excited for us to leave so he can  "live his life" like he's 16.


My Mom took splitting up really hard.. mostly because she stuck in through him not being divorced to his first wife and being illegally married to her..  through an affair with my little sister's best friend's mother.  She feels like she wasted 30 years with someone who didn't give a shit about her..   Jeremy and I helped her move into her apartment in July and she's finally seeing someone.. trying to move on with her life.  

I couldn't imagine trying to move on after 30 year with the same person... after losing someone you thought was your best friend just because he didn't want you anymore.   Very sad...


Anyways..   I feel like I'm the middle person here.  i NEVER though my parents would be getting a divorce and because I still live here with my Dad, it's like im obligated to be in the damn middle. I want them both to be happy because everyone deserves to be happy but I'm still angry because even though he wont admit it..  i KNOW he was cheating on my Mom again.    and im PISSED that he's going to moving her kids into mine and my sister's bedrooms.  

Say myself, Jeremy and the kids come home for holidays..  can't stay with my Mom in her 1bd apartment.. Can't stay here because well..   it'll be weird.   Wouldn't want to intrude on his "new" family.  

*sigh*   I'm just at a loss...