It's the Final Countdown.. dun dun dun dun

It really is, which is absolutley terrifying.

I've been wanting to write again for a while and finish working on my blog graphics...  or well...   start considering I said I wanted to make to change it to a holiday type theme and havent done anything since..

But in my defense..   I have been nesting like a absolute psycho.   ;)

4 seperate appointments a week is really a buzzkill..   They try and schedule 3 in one day but of course once one appointment is running behind, everything gets thrown off and a block of 3 appointments scheduled for an hour and a half time slot turns into 4 and a half hours worth of appointments.   ughh.


Anyways..

Thanksgiving was good..  I was rather disappointed since I was super excited for all the food, yet Butterball took up way too much room in my abdomen that I couldn't over stretch my stomach and fill it five times over with too much food.    Major diappointment, seriously.

We also had to make a trip to L&D at the hospital I'll be delivering at to do a NST.   My dr's office was closed that holiday weekend so I had to walk in for an appointment and also got an AFI done.   Baby was doing great, contractions every 5 min but was only feeling 1 out of 3 of them.  My Mom kept the kids for a few hours and boy was it nice to have some down time with Jeremy, just him and myself since we havent have time alone together since July for our anniversary.  My fluids for my AFI were great also, i believe i was measuring a 13 then.   Apparently anything between a 6 and 23 is good. 


I was contracting randomly, well steadily actually..   but they're not doing much to progress me at all which is fine with me.  :)    Finally they laid off and I'm a bit more comfortable becides this HUGE bowling ball stuffed under my shirt.  lol

So today, I am 38.2weeks pregnant.     It's really happening next Monday..  I'll be a mother of THREE children.    The idea alone scares me and obviously I can't go back now..  not that I'd want to anyways.   I just cant believe how quickly this pregnancy went by considering I was pregnant RIGHT before this.    Pracitcally two years straight of being pregnant.   YIKES.   Thats a LOT of skin stretching and hormones to deal with if you ask me!

I'll be having my third C-Section on Monday, the 12th.   I wanted to try for a vaginal so badly but after a lot of contemplating, I decided it would be best if I just had another C-section.   Especially after my growth scan a few weeks ago and the results saying Baby was measuring three weeks bigger than average and was a little chunker already.    My hopes are maybe for our 4th child, in many years from now..   there will be some kind of medical advances or me just feeling a little more secure and I can try for a VBAMC.  (Vaginal Birth After Multiple C-sections)   Maybe within 5-6 years I'll be in much better health and wont of Gestational Diabetes and won't run the risk of having a large baby and I could safely try for a vaginal..  also by them my incision and scar tissue from this Butterball will be nicely healed and secured.   Less of a chance for rupture after that long of a break between children.  

I've been nesting like crazy the last few days.  I went from being so over exausted two weeks ago to NEEDING to nest and reorganize everything.   It's weird how babies can mess with you like this.   lol  and I have never been so thankful for Jeremy before.   I absolutley love him with all my heart but these last few weeks he has been a total life saver.   He knows how uncomfortable I am 24/7 now and how exausting just living is at this point..   So he's been doing a LOT to help me out  (except waking up in the middle of the night to deal with Maleah) and I'm really looking forward to the extra help from him after I have Butterball.   He wasn't there for me after I had Mallory or Maleah so it'll be nice to have an extra set of hands when one of the kid's need something while I have the new baby on my boob.  

I am feeling extra guilty at this point though and I know a friend of mine is feeling the same considering she's in the exact same boat.  We both have kids just over a year old and are expecting within the next week again...   I know Mallory is super excited to meet the new baby and to be a big sister to two younger siblings, not just one..   but poor Maleah just doesn't understand.   I mean, she could care less now..   She'll probably be more confused when she realizes Mommy has a lap again and the big hard belly is gone than wondering where this new squeaking baby came from.    I'm worried we're robbing her from her time to be a baby but on the other hand, I look at her and see how she tries so hard to be a big girl and do everything her big sister does.   She doesn't want to be a baby really, but at the same time..  she's only 13 months.. she IS our baby still.    She'll absolutley be our baby still even after Butters is born, but I feel like she wont have the same opportunities to be little like Mallory did when she was her age.   It really breaks my heart.  
*fingers crossed* Everything will be fine, but I still have a pit in the bottom of my stomach wondering how she's going to react...   How our little Screech Owl is going to feel when she sees Mommy and Daddy snuggling a new baby.  <3

I have ONE appointment left..  Well, technically three..  Friday I will be pretty much spending the day at my OB's office.    I have a NST, AFI and OB appointment to go to and also need to go do my Pre-Op bloodwork etc to prepare for my C-section Monday.    I have a billion questions I need to ask my OB about my procedure since this one will be so much different from my other two considering I developed these odd annoying allergies that need to be adressed and avoided during my procedure.   I'm seriously wondering how in the world they're going to keep my IV line in me considering I'm VERY allergic to adhesives now and can't have one of those sticky sheets put over my IV.. so how in the world are they going to keep my IV securely in place?    How are they going to seal my incision since they can't use any type of glue in my incision?   Is she going to cut out all my old scar tissue and use a ton of internal stitches and just staples on the outside?

UGHHH  so many worries and concerns that need to be adressed..   but of course I'm also concerned about my Spinal and that whole procedure since my last was absolute HELL.  

Wish me luck everyone!   I'm going to need it..